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Rant

I really hate going to school here. It’s the same old shit. I feel like I’m forever in summer mode because I have to stay in this piece of shit. Perhaps it’s also because I’m still trying to adjust, but seriously..
I have to stay here for the next few months. It’s honestly going to be so hard because of how unmotivated everything is appearing to be for me.

I stay in this shit house, no adventures, always hearing and seeing the same thing. I hate this place, I hate this house, I hate being here. I was prepared to start anew, to start a new life not in Santa Rosa, but no, I have to stay here.

Once in a while I can complain to myself how much I hate this place, but I know in the end I just need to suck it up until December, when everything comes down to where I go.

Frankly I am pretty firm with just moving to San Francisco next year regardless of me getting into SFSU or not, but there is a slight chance that I could consider Southern California. I have a few months to think it over.

fiercezucchini:

those feelings when you want a relationship

but you don’t

but you do

but you don’t

(via kaaarlo)

I keep replaying that night and compare other to the recent night.

It doesn’t make sense to me like seriously wtf.
Are games usually played like this?
I’m so new to this crap, but I guess practice makes improvement. Too bad I’m just so straightforward and want to be direct with everything.

Ill find people like that too, one day.

wtf

why the hell do people need to play games with each other if they are interested? why not just be straight up without rules and crap involved

"The honeymoon phase never has to end."
-Jimmy Fallon (on marriage)

(Source: camilledope, via chrisssriley)


sighs

Alright well this guy told me how he wasn’t going clubbing (he thinks) because he was tired and had too much homework, but later texted me saying he was going. Stupid me I got all happy and told him to go, then told him I was there.

He didn’t text me back, no big deal I didn’t care. But, I saw him in at the club like what. So I kind of figured he was ignoring me which was shitty but I wasn’t sure. Then when he saw me, he kept turning away so that really upset me.
The night was alright once Jonathan and the rest came, but I got annoyed again because there was no one cute I could dance with. And I really liked the way I looked that night… my outfit of course.

Later that night I talked to his friend and he told me to talk to him, but I’m like noooo. Marylyn talked to him too and said, “Yeah he’s just not that interested. He said she was annoying with her frequent text messages and he didn’t want to drive 2 hours to see me.

OKAY what really bothered me was the fact that he said I was annoying with me frequent text messages. Okay bro sorry I replied to your text messages. Yeah I admit, I replied to your text fast, but I reply to everyone’s text fast so it’s like whatever, and I texted you like once or twice a day at most, but that’s pretty low you calling me annoying cause of that.

Like I contemplated being the bigger person to talk to him and tell him it’s cool, and I’m not depressed about it, but after hearing that, yeah no.

-_-

i thought he was pretty mature but this kind of makes me think..

"If you show me you don’t give a fuck, I’ll show you that I’m better at it."