Can I please go to college away from here….
I know that everything will fall into place the way it should be… so I must wait patiently.. but I get slapped in the face with e-mails of rejections of Cal Grant.
I mean.. I guess this is what I get for having these shitty grades.. and you really need to earn your way through school….
This week has been getting strenuous -sighs -
So many deadlines coming up x.x
So little sleep… it’s been hard to keep my eyes open “functionally” and be mentally alerted ):
"SAVE ME, OH SAVE MEEEE " B.A.P ‘s song is stuck in my headd
This is second semester, the last semester of high school.
I’m fighting it hard. Although it does seem like I am not, but oh… I really am.
What’s effing me over? Chemistry
Now, I now I can fix this.
So please college….I hope I get into at least one.
I really regret not applying for more (I did not have any fee waivers)
For all those who plan to apply in the future
PLEASE DO NOT let money be a big problem for you if you know you are able to afford it, but is scared of making you or your parents spend too much. Three months ago, when I applied, I was confident that at least one school would take me.
Now the three months has passed by and I screwed my first semester over. Don’t make the same mistake I did. My GPA has swept to where I would have never imagined it to.
It’s so embarrassing and disappointing.
I question myself now, Will I go to college?
This question is somewhat rhetorical, since yes, there’s always the JC. But, I want to go to a “legitimate” college where I can obtain my Bachelors degree faster. Yes I have heard that it wouldn’t matter where I go after I succeed in the future.
-sighs- It’s also that “pride” I would like to take.. to be able to say “Yes I went to “___ University” or “UC __”
I don’t even know about UC’s anymore since I don’t make the Cal Grant. I hate everything. I don’t even want to be here anymore. This stress is really annoying.
But I can’t say much here until I hear back from the three colleges.. but I am bound to apply for appeal for all.
I think I’m getting close, if not, am at a wake up call stage.
To remind myself why I am still in school, and stop FUCKING MESSING AROUND. I need to stop caring about socializing so much since I will have plenty of time in the future.
I can’t even blame it on work anymore. I’m just being a lazy little shit who needs to effing stop. I had PRACTICALLY A WEEK to do this Nutrition assignment, but I thought I could just pull it off in one night. Yes, I did, but did I leave room to study for my Chem test? NOOOOPE
We had a study session today, so I better get a DECENT PASS-ABLE GRADE.